I should be doing what Ms. Baby is doing here. It's late, I can't sleep. I keep having nightmares about being half dead and someone leaving me to die in a morgue alone. I don't think I should watch anymore footage from Katrina. So so sad, it's slipping into my psyche.
I haven't felt like being in front of the computer after work this summer. I haven't felt like drawing at home either.
I'm going to go hug my cat, she's very huggable.
Can you believe it? I've done an Illustration Friday again! Not a good one, but it is one.
I made myself do a quick one because my attitude has been bad and I needed to let some of it out. Work has been bringing me down on myself lately and I've been letting other people's opinions and comments at work affect the way I perceive myself and my skills. I'm trying to adjust that way of thinking though. So doing a quick sketch tonight has done wonders to the attitude. It's weird that the theme is Digital, I have been missing that old fashioned pencil to sketchbook lately too and have been feeling chained to the Wacom tablet.
grumpy, grumpy girl am I !
listening to the hubby on the radio gives me a cheer especially hearing secret message songs. Also talking to good hearted Ang helped a tonage. She's cool.
I think I forget how to use all that stuff.
It's been a while since I've been here. I've been busy at work on my new toddler's board book. That has seemed to sap my creative energies. I guess there is not really a finite amount of creativity. I was just sick of the computer by the end of the day to participate in Illo Friday. have been peeking at others though. good stuff! I I'll dive back in eventually. Its hard with summer on the verge and all the outdoor fun in the sun to be had.
This week has been a bummer though. I just found out that my little sister ( I was a Big Brother /Big Sister volunteer) doesn't want me as her big anymore. She has been a bit difficult, sullen, quiet the past couple months and I blamed puberty. It still could be that, but it still stings a bit. I feel like I invested a lot of emotion into that girl and she always had her wall up. That was a harder task than I had expected. We had fun, but I think I was looking for a lasting relationship and she wasn't. I know what its like to be that age, looking to your friends for most of your emotional needs trying to fit in. Not wanting to be noticed or pointed out for being different. She has a rought road ahead of her, I hope she does okay. I'll have to let go.
I must have sensed it coming because 2 weeks ago I had a dream that it happened just like it really came to reality.
Happy Memorial Day Tomorrow!
I haven't posted at all this month. I also haven't done illustration friday in a while. Been busy and spending all my creative juices on a book I'm illustrating at work. It's cute, I love it. I know that in a few months I'll look back on it and see all the mistakes and all the things I could change, but it's for work-they own it and I have only so much time to work on it. I did sketch something for this week's reinvent topic, but I hate it and I can't seem to keep up with this new Thursday deadline. I'll try next week!
This painting is by Egon Schiele. One of my favorite artists. In college I studied art for a month or so in France (and all over) and saw a show of his in Aix en Provence. It was so exciting for me to see them in person and get up close and look at the line quality of his drawings. Fantastic! I haven't felt that excited and juiced up about art in a while, I need to get out more and look at what other people are doing now.
I thought I'd play around in Painter this time for my Illustration Friday entry. I'm feeling a little better this week, but I think I need to do something to recharge my creative battery. Maybe take a class or two.
On a sad, sad note: Funeral services were held yesterday for Knitty and Pearl in the back yard. I could have taken them back to the pet store to get new fish, but I felt like they deserved to be honored as family members. Sad. Pearl passed first and I believe Knitty couldn't go on without her. I can't believe I couldn't keep them alive for over a week! I feel just terrible about it.
I'm not completely happy with how this turned out....but here is my submission forIllustration Friday. It is inspired by my friend Astrid's pink camo jammies and her daddie's comment that she could hide in a field of tulips. She is much cuter than I portrayed her. Wouldn't this make a great commemorative plate?
I've been in a creative funk and been feeling untalented lately. I feel like I'm lost and have no direction and I'm foolin' myself for thinking I can do this as a job. Then I read penelope illustration where she just recently felt similar feelings and I felt a bit better, but I still feel like I suck today and can't make anything look good. So I'm telling myself it's a phase and it'll pass like Penelope said.
Tomorrow I'm off to D.C. to visit Le Fruzsi. I miss that gal. We'll also take a little visit to MD to see Madame Jess and her magic grow belly. Should be a fun trip, but I sure do hate to fly. HATE IT.
we have new family members!! Meet Knitty and Pearl. Pearl is the white one of coarse and Knitty is the orange guy. I've been wanting fish for several weeks now and finally went to get them on Saturday. I have only had fish once before. In 1984,I won them at the NC state Fair throwing ping pong balls at them. I won 2 and carried them around in a bag all night I am really surprised that they lived at all let alone in a stinky unclean (I was 14 and lazy, ok!) bowl for 2 years. Sting and Matt may you rest in peace little buddies. So let's hope these guys make it! I'm already attatched. They are so cute. They hang out together and stare out at us side by side always together. Love may be in the water in there. Maybe we'll have even more. So I've been researching fancy goldfish to make sure I do everything right... Fish me luck! Ha!
Here is my Illustration Friday post. The theme is fragile. Nothing is more fragile to me than those naked little pink baby birds. I skipped last week...too lazy? Probably.
I'm so over the bleakness of Winter. I mean either snow or give me some green to look at. sheesh! I forget what the trees looked like with leaves.I've started some tomato seeds. I hope they grow big and strong!
This week's Illustration Friday theme was HARD! Lord knows our families and friends have known a lot of sorrow in the last years. I've seen the deepest sorrow in eyes of people I love,too much lately. It makes me feel helpless and want to offer people my heart.
I'm a little behind this week and just did a rough version for Illustration Friday's theme this week...flight. This is in honor of the kitty hat I knit and then lost recently and the snowy winds we had last week that felt like you could be swept up to the moon!
My sweetie Farmer surprised me with all these things for early Valentines day right before I left town to spend time with some girlfriends. One of which was in the middle of a separation and was the reason for the whole trip. She is devistated,has a toddler and has a lot of scary hard decisions in front of her. While she was talking about her woes and all the things he did and said and didn't do and didn't say. I realized how really lucky I am. Things aren't perfect by any means, but I feel like I have the world at home and feel excited to see him everyday. (even when we're both grumpy and have had crappy days.)
Happy Valentines to Farmer, thank you for all you do for me.
This is my first submission to Illustration Friday
! These guys are the new sock animals I have been making for my dearest friends and their sweet sweet babies. I love my friends and these guys will hopefully help me show it.
This is my first attempt at posting a photo (or photoshop manipulation) to my site...still learning!
